Diminish

Standing abandoned on this vast plane.

(What adjectives can describe

a heart that is breaking

from the weight

of its own loneliness? )

I searched.

Shuffling through my

schedule

emotions

relationships

memories

plans

Frantically.

“God where are You?”

Energy spent, I collapsed.

From my knees, face to the ground

The search continued

And I found I’d been looking too hard.

Expecting to find Him on my scale

it wasn't until the balance changed

and face-down, I could see

I hadn’t found Him because there was too much me.

As I considered my surroundings,

The swells and ridges

The firm, scarred ground I knelt on.

I was struck with how inadequate my dimensions were.

Not nearly enough to comprehend His presence.

He had been there.

A giant invisible only because of his great size,

The whole time feeling stranded,

I was searching in the palm of His hand

Only as far as in His very grasp.

Diminish

Melt down,

Re-calibrate

Re-shape

Me

Is there anything great that is not in You?

And he hath made my mouth like a sharp sword;

in the shadow of his hand hath he hid me, and made me a polished shaft;

in his quiver hath he hid me; and said unto me,

thou art my servant, O Israel, in whom I will be glorified.

Then I said, I have laboured in vain, I have spent my strength for nought, and in vain:

yet surely my judgment is with the Lord, and my work with my God.

...Yet shall I be glorious in the eyes of the Lord

and my God shall be my strength.

Isaiah 49:2-5